Recently, I’m racking my brains to apply for the big four. I feel the applying is so boring and meaningless. It makes me feel poor and miserable as a buffoon after the mechanical processes.

I have never thought to be elite, and actually I’m not. My hope is to be better than average, but I’m not sure if I made it.

I can hardly imagine what kind of offer I will receive or where I would stay at last, and I reluctant to imagine what I should do if there is no job opportunity for me when I graduate in Dec. But I do know I have to finish my master thesis as soon as possible, since there’s basically one month left to do thesis defence, and I have to spare some time for job seeking too. Full throttle!